Mendung tak bererti hujan

Sunday, November 24, 2013 / Comments (0) / by Skinny Yash

Langit tak selalu cerah.

IUI kali kedua officially gagal. How am i feeling right now? Hmm...as expected. Sesungguhnya dah bersedia dengan result tu. So, dont worry. I'm okay. Lebih banyak yang bertanya, lebih sedih. So berhenti bertanya.

Kenapa gagal? Tiada rezeki buat masa ini agaknya. Semua kerja Tuhan. Kita hanya mampu berusaha. Doctor suggested that I should take a rest this cycle and repeat again the next coming cycle.

People said that I'm just thinking too much of it. Kau duduk dalam kasut aku, then kau tahu apa yang kau cakap tu betul ke tak. To be frank, the first 3 years we dont really trying. We both are freaking workaholics! I myself worked very hard. The stress? Tak payah cakapla. Busy nak mampos! So, I decided to stop working and follow my husband to Japan.

Yang pastinya, Japan pon tak boleh nak mencuba sangat with Hubs busy working time. Pagi pukul 7 dah pegi kerja. Malam pukul 12 baru balik. Weekend kadang-kadang kerja. Stress tak?

Back to KL for good pon stress. Diam tak diam, it's been almost 2years plus I stayed with PIL. Kadang-kadang the problem it's not them, but us. I myself still waiting and hoping that my life changed next year. In every aspects.

InsyaAllah.

Kadang-kadang

Monday, November 18, 2013 / Comments (0) / by Skinny Yash

Kadang-kadang
Aku dah menyampah dengan manusia
Manusia yang bukan bodoh tapi tak pandai
Tak pandai dalam menjaga hati.

Kadang-kadang
Aku marah dengan manusia
Manusia yang tak sedar
Tak sedar bahawa manusia berubah.

Kadang-kadang
Aku pelik dengan manusia
Manusia yang kata-katanya
Dimulut lain, dihati beza, difikiran jauh sekali.

Kadang-kadang
Aku sedih.
Sedih.

Berhentilah menghukum.
Berhentilah.



Second IUI: Where the Sperm and Eggs unite

Friday, November 08, 2013 / Comments (2) / by Skinny Yash

Alhamdulillah. Syukur. Satu proses yang sangat dipermudahkan olehNya. Kalau nak dibandingkan yang pertama kali, agak lama prosedur sebab Doctor ada kesulitan nak memasukkan catherer tu kedlm uterus.

This time, within 5-10minutes, siap! And tak sakit pon, except masa Doctor nak masukkan mulut itik tu! Hehe Kali ni, penjagaan selepas IUI lebih dititikberatkan. No driving, No jalan-jalan. Malam tadi je naik turun tangga dah 4-5kali. So, I think, I should stop. Bed rest 2 hari la..kasi can please.

Mudah-mudahan Allah permudahkan urusan kami suami isteri. Usaha, doa dan tawakal. Aku redha. Sekarang asyik nak ke toilet. Pundi kencing asyik rasa penuh je. Belom breakfast lagi ni. Pagi lagi dah aktiviti membuang. Lancar. Nak elak dari sembelit macam last IUI.

Korang doakan la untuk kami suami isteri. :) InsyaAllah...

Thanks for all the support and kata-kata semangat. Congrats untuk Encik Suami jugak yang akan memulakan career baru Isnin depan. Harini last day dengan company lama. Huhu Alhamdulillah. Allah murahkan rezeki kami suami isteri.

Next appointment, 21November2013. Beta HCG test. Moga ada sinar harapan untuk kami! Yeah!

Date with The Eggs

Wednesday, November 06, 2013 / Comments (0) / by Skinny Yash

It's been a while since my last post on TTC. tak ingat dah bila. Anyway, since my last miscarriage..we decided to take a rest for couple of months to let the rahim get back on track. Hihi..

Im lucky, after all the test i've been through for infertility treatment..i'm good to conceive. I don't have any problem at all. Kata Dokter, "belom ada rezeki je lagi ni...." insyaAllah..mudah2an dipermudahkan...

My period cycle is 30days every month. I dont have any problem such as period pain. Alhamdulillah. To those who experienced this, please please please...find a gynaecologist. You need to be tested and help. Never too early for a treatment. You never know until you get tested. Even before u actually planning to get pregnant.

And so, this month is my 3rd cycle on clomid. The first cycle i took clomid we opted for a natural way which is normal intimate. Anyhow, after 2 weeks, I did a blood test and the result was Fail. The 2nd cycle, i took clomid and we decided to proceed with IUI. So, as usual i have to take the pills on CD2 till CD6. Went for a scan to see if the Eggs has matured. On CD12 i've got injected with Gonal-F. To break the eggs. After 2 weeks, bloodtest result that I'm pregnant! Hehehe..greatest news ever! Somehow, the baby stop developing at 7weeks. And I miscarriage.

Today is my CD13. Just went for scan and lots of Eggs in there average of 1.7cm. Good to go say the Doctor. So, she injected Gonal-F to prepare for tomorrow IUI procedure.

Hoping that everyone will keep on praying for us. InsyaAllah..jika ada rezeki kami...pasti ada.

Till my next update tomorrow! ;)